In a funk.

Its a new year, but i feel like its still the same. I think its because I am in florida. Its always warm * most of the year* thus i feel like its still August. Its weird. I'm used to seasons and changes and when there isn't any of it - im kinda lost.
I must admit i adjust easily to new environments. Of course I HATED orlando at first... but now i like it. I love the weather, I like living in big cities, and I just like not having to wear shoes... like boots or socks. I HATE SOCKS! the sad thing is i have to wear them to sleep in the winter or else i get allergies.. without fail... its weird..
my house looks like crap. there is toys everywhere, clean laundry on my kitchen table and i just hate putting clothes away. When did a family of 3 produce 4 loads of laundry in a week?.. i don't even wanna know what a family of 5 produces a week... sweet goodness...
I miss Chicago .. a lot.
I can't wait to take my son downtown chicago this summer when i head back. I want to take all he cliche tourist pictures with him, because hey.. it is his FIRST time.
My hubby thinks i'm crazy but he needs to understand.
When will these fireworks end? seriously people new years day is OVER ... STOP WAKING UP MY SON! * stab*
ugh.. okay this is a horrible post.
adios

The first of the year

I figured that I should write a blog for the first of the year!
Today has been a ROUGH day.
My parents visit was wonderful. Too wonderful.
We had a great week, going shopping, to the beach, disney world, my mom and dad spoiling both me and the baby.
I got to eat out almost everyday ( something not possible right now)
Its okay i'm fine with not going out to eat as long as I get to stay home with my baby.

I'm so so sad. They left today. Of course it was a afternoon filled with tears and sometimes my hubs thinks we are ridicilous for crying so much, but he doesn't understand how much i miss my family and the bond we have.

Okay enough about this. I've been reading, watching, and just hearing moms and their experiences. I've also been watching 16 and pregnant and WITH OUT FAIL i cry during the labor part.. why.. i have no idea..
I feel so blessed to be a SAHM. Seriously I know its not a possiblity for ALOT of moms and even though andrew and I live modestly we have what we need, and for that I'm thankful.

I love every moment with that boy. He is my life.
I was told today im totally going to be a horrid mother in law. I'm not going to be, i want to be as good as I can..

I'm just a scatter brain today.
My son still has NO teeth.
He's being irriatble at night. Waking up every 3 to 4 hours . Hes been just sleeping in our bed at night.
I'm hoping that this is just a stage of his teething.

I want a baby girl. I do. We just really can't afford to add another memeber to our family right now. Also at times I think i'd be okay with just my chubs.

I made no resolutions this year. I mean kinda in my head but nothing major. same resolution i've made since i was 14. lose weight. Meh... this year im not going to stress too much about it. I do want to lose weight but this time to be healthy, not for looks.. its for me.

Alas i will leave you with some pictures of our week and new years.

Catch UP

This Christmas was awesome. It wasn't over the top or anything like that. I was surrounded by the people i love. My Dad, mom, sister, hubs, and chubs. It was wonderful.

Chrsitmas Eve we spent it at Disney world. It was a hectic morning followed by some other problems but we finally got to disney world around 2. As soon as we arrived the Disney day parade had started so we were able to watch it!
We didn't get to ride to many rides and THANK GOD my mom and dad WANTED to stay with the baby while my sister hubs and I went off. We had a good time. But thanks to florida's crazy weather it was QUITE chilly that night. Oh well we made the best of it, but seriously note to self do NOT take a baby to disney world expecially when they are on a sleeping schedule and by 7 they just want to be cranky.

Finally Saturday morning i woke up and made a yummy breakfest and we opened up the baby's gifts. Grandma def brought it this christmas. It was awesome. Followed by church and a tour of my hubs hospital where he works.

My hubs is a hospital chaplain

yes my mom bought me a coach purse, she's been promising one since i graduate high school

It was a riding BULLS EYE... not put together yet but you get the point

Overall it was an awesome christmas and the fun continues until saturday morning when my parents leave and my husband works ALL day. YUP ill be crying.

Last minute

Of course there are like 1087087 things i have to do before christmas and my parents arrival in less than 3 hours!!!
today i already did 3 loads of laundry,cleaned the house, made multiple beds, dealt with mr.fussy. i cant wait for tonight, dinner and just good time with my family!! im so so excited.
I thought i would never "host" a christmas but here i am waiting impatiently patiently for them.

i still have to get dressed.
ugh. the hubs is secretly wrapping something in the room... im assuming its for me:)
adios

So what Wednesday

So what if i haven't even begun deep cleaning and the parents are coming tomorrow

so what if i still haven't purchased all my christmas gifts.

So what if i try to squeeze my son in 6 months clothes and he kinda looks ridiculous ( grandma is coming)

So what if i've made crappy dinners these past days

So what if let the baby sleep in the bed when he wakes up at 3 am and im too lazy to get back up to put him in his crib

Family time plus mommy fails.

I can not wait wait till thursday night, the family will be here!
They are driving from chicago and its going to be a LONG drive! but im so excited, my sister can't stop talking about it, and my son is going to get the much love he needs from grandma and grandpa!
We went to the outlets here in orlando, the week of christmas... bad bad idea.
Its not "cold" but its windy, and i just had my son in a long sleeve Tshirt wrapped inside my moby wrap- mom fail-
Im being crazy becuase i can just see myself with 60 degree weather in michigan just taking him out in a tshirt and thinking "wow is warm today" but in florida suddenly 60 degrees seems too cold to be not wearing a sweater and a hat ( possibly a jacket).
I finally put the last of the decorations up for christmas ( i know late) but i didn't think i had enough white thread to hang these snowflakes and i guess i did :)
All is ready.
Tomorrow and thursday will be major cleaning up days before the parents come for sure.
Also finish hanging pictures and i guess neither the hubby nor I cared to hang until now.
Always happens, we don't get those last things done until major guest come over.

Im starting to realize half of my belongings are made from plastic, and by mine i mean the baby.Whatever is the babies is mine, all his stuff is everywhere, he just is the king of this house.
It seems like i can not get anything done these days, the baby won't nap, he is teething and although hes playing on the floor he'll come up to the kitchen gate and stand up. He is not balanced enough yet, he can't "bounce" back up. He knows it too cause he starts crying like "mom i dont know how to get back down" its cute also annoying when im washing dishes.

Anyways adios

My Roomate Weekend

It was a nice relaxing weekend starting thursday!
One of my old roomate from college was in town for a wedding! I was SOOOOOOOOOOOO happy to see her!
She came around 7 pm to meet the babe and say hi to the hubs! her dad was with her too! We had a good time just talking at home but then it was my FIRST girls night out without the baby since he was born!
Andrew stayed with daddy and i went out with my friend.
It was so weird going out without him. I was kind of at a lost.
We went to dinner and just talked and caught up on each other lives. We are both Speech-Pathology graduates and both are on a halt for graduate school. It was SO nice to spend time. Since we had a "late" outing i didn't get home till 1am. It was nice, but i did miss the boys at home. Girls night out never feels the same when your thinking about how the boys are doing and if daddy can handle any emergencies. I know he can but you know im the fierce momma and all.

We did have an AMAZING dark chocolate cake the size of my head.. not kidding. it was AMAZING.
I missed eating out and having chocolate.
I feel like since the baby is more mobile it seems IMPOSSIBLE to eat out he just wants tobe on the floor crawling.
ON saturday the hubs had to work all day so my OTHER college roomate who lives in the area came to spend the day with me. We went to church and then that evening we ordered take out of thai food. We WERE going to eat out but i just saw it being disastrous with the baby and all, so she agreed to eat at my house. Great friend she is :).
We just stayed in, it was fine cause it was a cold,dark, rainy day in orlando. I made some hot chocolate and we watched 16 and pregnant, while i scared the living daylights out her told her how i handled my labor.
Serious i don't know how those girls do it. Me at 16 i JUST got my first kiss, granted these girls get pregnant with their first 'love" and at their first time, but i just don't know how the heck i could handle a baby. Im 23 and sometimes i just feel like crying and having my mom with me..
ha.okay enough about that.

MY FAMILY IS COMING THIS WEEK
i seriously could not be more excited. I haven't seen them since august and this will be the last time i see them till next august :(. Stupid distance and jobs.
It will be a fast couple of days but i will treasure them. Everyone who has their family near them feel lucky! ( of course if you think its lucky).

I haven't talked much about my dog rocky on here. he is a little maltipom and hes 3.5 pounds. seriously.. hes just so funny to me sometimes. My husband and him do not get along.. for whatever reason.. sigh.. one day my hubs will like dogs, he go me him for my bday last year, but i think both parties need to be on board if you want to get a dog.

I know the babes knows who "rocky" is since im constantly saying "rocky dont touch the babys toys" hahah. i love myself.

I love my rocky.. we may or may not have to give him away next year :( TEAR TEAR TEAR drops, if anyone has a home for him let me know. I hope not i pray not, but we can't find a place in michigan that accepts dogs. story of my freakin life. Im not going to talk about this before i start crying.

why don't i take the time my son is sleeping to actually sleep.
ugh
Adios amigos!